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    Monday, January 3rd, 2011
    10:24 am
    @@@@@ Then, sometimes when you reach for the
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    Then, sometimes when you reach for the lightswitch
    to make them go away, you discover the
    power's out
    "But you're better now
    705
    "Yes," he said"Pam had a lot to do with that
    Can I tell you something about her you might
    already know?"
    "Sure," I said, only hoping he wasn't going to
    share the fact that she sometimes laughed way down
    in her throat when she came
    "She has great insight but little kindness," Tom
    said"It's a weirdly cruel mixbut not necessarily because I
    thought he was wrong
    "She gave me a brisk talking-to about taking care
    of myself not so long ago, and it hit homeAnd from the look of her, you might be in
    for a talking-to yourself, EdgarI think I might
    find your friend Kamen and engage him in a bit of
    a discourse
    The girls and Ric were staring up at Wireman Looks
    West and chattering animatedlyPam, however, was
    positioned about halfway down the line of Girl and
    Ship paintings, which hung like movie posters, and
    she looked disturbedNot angry, exactly, just
    disturbedShe beckoned me over, and
    once I was there, she didn't waste time
    706
    "Is the little girl in these pictures Ilse?" She
    pointed up at No"I thought at first this one
    with the red hair was supposed to be the doll Dr
    Kamen gave you after your accident, but Ilse had a
    tic-tac-toe dress like that when she was littleI
    bought it at RompersAnd this one-" Now she
    pointed at No"I swear this is the dress she
    just had to have to start first grade in - the one
    she was wearing when she broke her damn arm that
    night after the stock car races!"
    Well, there you wereI remembered the broken arm
    as having come after church, but that was only a
    minor misstep in the grand dance of memoryThere
    were more important thingsOne was that Pam was
    in a unique position to see through most of the
    smoke and mirrors that critics like to call art -
    at least in my case she wasIn that way, and
    probably in a great many others, she was still my
    wif
    Sunday, January 2nd, 2011
    11:23 am
    @@@@@It was less expensive to pay them than pay
    @@@@@It was less expensive to pay them than pay the governmentHis best lesson to me, which I have used most of my life, is "Be smart and you won't be pushed around as much He knew the law because he was a law-abiding citizenHe knew the law because it was expensive to not know the law "If you know you're right, you're not afraid of fighting back Even if you are taking on Robin Hood and his band of Merry Men
    My highly educated dad always encouraged me to seek a good job with a strong corporationHe spoke of the virtues of "working your way up the corporate ladder He didn't understand that, by relying solely on a paycheck from a corporate employer, I would be a docile cow ready for milking
    When I told my rich dad of my father's advice, he only chuckled"Why not own the ladder?" was all he said
    As a young boy, I did not understand what rich dad meant by owning my own corporationIt was an idea that seemed impossible, and intimidatingAlthough I was excited by the idea, my youth would not let me envision the possibility that grownups would someday work for a company I would own
    The point is, if not for my rich dad, I would have probably followed my educated dad's adviceIt was merely the occasional reminder of my rich dad that kept the idea of owning my own corporation alive and kept me on a different pathBy the time I was 15 or 16, I knew I was not going to continue down the path my educated dad was recommendingI did not know how I was going to do it, but I was determined not to head in the direction most of my classmates were headingThat decision changed my life
    It was not until I was in my mid-20s that my rich dad's advice began to make more senseI was just out of the Marine Corps and working for XeroxI was making a lot of money, but every time I looked at my paycheck, I was always disappointedThe deductions were so large, and the more I worked, the greater the deductionsAs I became more successful, my bosses talked about promotions and raises It was flattering, but I could hear my rich dad asking me in my ear: "Who are you working for? Who are you making rich?"
    In 1974, while still an employee for Xerox, I formed my first corporation and began "minding my own busines
    Saturday, January 1st, 2011
    10:31 am
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    If I had a few company commanders who were perceptive, the whole process would be simpler, more responsive, and yet it's too much to ask sensitivity of a CO besides all the other things he has to haveNo, it's my fault, I should have seen it in spite of themPerhaps for this reason the early success of the attack gave him little elationHe was pleased, naturally enough, because his greatest burden had been removedThe pressure from Corps had relaxed, and the fear that for a time had colored everything -- that he would be relieved of his command in the middle of the omega de ville campaign -- had retreated now, and would expire if the advance continued favorablyStill he had substituted one dissatisfaction for anotherCummings was bothered by a suspicion, very faint, not quite stated, that he had no more to do with the success of the attack than a man who presses a button and waits for the elevatorIt muddied the edges of his satisfaction, angered him subtlyThe odds were that the attack would bog down sooner or later in any case, and when he left tomorrow for Army, this present success was going to hurt his chances of getting naval support for replica tiffany jewelry the Botoi Bay operationIn effect he would have to commit himself, claim that the campaign could be won only by that side invasion, and there would be the ticklish business of having to undercut, disparage the advances he had made already
    Nevertheless, things had changedReynolds had sent him a confidential memo that Army might not frown completely on the Botoi idea now, and when he saw them he could maneuver itThat type of favor was manageable
    In the meantime he had been playing the fraud with himself, he knewAll day as he had sat in the operations tent, reading the louis vuitton men reports that had come in, he had been a little annoyedHe had felt like a politician on election night, he thought, who was watching the party candidate win and feeling chagrined because he had tried to nominate another manThe damn thing was unimaginative, stale, any commander could have mounted it as successfully, and it would be galling to admit that Army was right
    But of course they weren'tThere was going to be trouble ahead, and they refused to accept itFor a moment Cummings thought of the reconnaissance patrol he had sent to the other side of the mountain, and gucci fabric he shruggedIf that came off, if they brought back a report of some value, if indeed he could manage to send a company over their route, and pull off the Botoi Bay invasion that way, it would be fine, impressiveBut there were too many chances against itThe best thing was to dismiss Hearn's patrol from his calculations until it returned
    Despite all his internal objections he had been busy, he had given all his attention to the advance, concentrated on all the reports that came inIt had been exhausting, demanding work, and by nightfall he was tired, needed some Cartier watch tank diversi
    Friday, December 31st, 2010
    10:32 am
    @@@@@"I learned a new song I think
    @@@@@"I learned a new song I think you
    might
    like," he said while Maureen was pouring the tea"I'm on a ship that
    stopped in Philadelphia before it come hereShall I sing it for
    you?"
    'What's it called, Danny? I might know it," Billy said"'I'll Take
    You Home'?" Billy shook his head"I'll be glad to learn it from
    you
    Danny Murray grinned"I'll be glad to show you He tossed the hair
    off his face and took a breathThen he opened his lips, and music
    poured out of him like shining silver threadI'll take you home
    again, Kathleen Across the ocean wild and wide To where your heart
    has
    ever been Since first you were my bonny brideThe roses all have left
    your cheekI've watched them fade away and dieYour voice is sad
    when e'er you speak And tears be-dim your loving And I will take
    you back, Kathleen To where your heart willfrel no painAnd when the
    hil4 are fresh and green I will take you to your home, Kathleen
    Scarlett joined in the applause"That was so
    grand I forgot to learn," Billy said ruefully"Sing it again, Danny,
    for me to get the tune
    "No!"
    Kathleen O'Hara jumped to her feetHer face was streaked with
    tears
    "I can't listen again, I can't!" She wiped her eyes with her palms
    "Forgive me," she sobbed She stepped carefully over
    the sleeping children and ran away"I'm sorry," said the boy
    "Whist, it's not your fault, lad," said Co
    Thursday, December 30th, 2010
    10:23 am
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    yearsShe drove to Chicago from…” I shook my head“There were several stages, not all of
    them aloneThe vehicle was stolenShe was searching for a cousin named Sharon, whom she
    had reason to hope was still humanShe neither found nor contacted anyone before she was
    spottedBut…” I struggled, fighting gucci hobo horsebit against another blank wall“I think… I can't be sure… I
    think she left a note… somewhere
    “So she expected someone would look for her?” the Seeker asked eagerlyIf she does not rendezvous with…” I gritted my teeth, truly
    fighting nowThe wall was black, and I could not tell how thick it wasI battered against it,
    sweat beading on chanel sale my foreheadThe Seeker and the Healer were very quiet, allowing me to
    concentrate
    I tried thinking of something else–the loud, unfamiliar noises the engine of the car had made,
    the jittery rush of adrenaline every time the lights of another vehicle drew near on the roadI
    already had this, and nothing fought meI let the tiffany heart tag memory carry me along, let it skip over the
    cold hike through the city under the sheltering darkness of night, let it wind its way to the
    building where they'd found me
    “Don't overextend –” the Healer began
    The Seeker shushed him
    I let my mind dwell on the horror of discovery, the burning hatred of the Seekers that
    overpowered women rolex almost everything elseThe hatred was evil; it was painI could hardly bear to feel
    itBut I let it run its course, hoping it would distract the resistance, weaken the defenses
    I watched carefully as she tried to hide and then knew she could notA note, scratched on a
    piece of debris with a broken pencilShoved hastily under a logo chanel doo
    Wednesday, December 29th, 2010
    10:23 am
    @@@@@the ship, that gorgeous white swallow John
    @@@@@the ship, that gorgeous white swallow
    John Eastlake screamingblood running from his
    nose and one eye
    I stared at it, mesmerizedIt was a child's
    watercolor, but it had been executed with hellish
    801
    skillIt depicted a man who looked insane with
    terror, grief, or both
    "One more, muchacho," Wireman said
    I flicked back the picture of the screaming man
    Old dried watercolors rattled like bonesBeneath
    the screaming father was the ship again, only this
    time it really was my ship, my PerseElizabeth
    had painted it at night, and not with a brush - I
    could still see the ancient dried prints of her
    child's fingers in the swirls of gray and black
    This time it was as if she had finally seen
    through the Perse's disguiseThe boards were
    splintered, the sails drooping and full of holes
    Around her, blue in the light of a moon that did
    not smile or send out happy-rays, hundreds of
    skeleton arms rose from the water in a dripping
    saluteAnd standing on the foredeck was a baggy,
    pallid thing, vaguely female, wearing a decayed
    something that might have been a cloak, a winding
    shroudIt was the red-robe, my redrobe,
    only seen from the frontThree empty
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    sockets peered from its head, and its grin outran
    the sides of its face in a crazy jumble of lips
    and teethIt was far more horrible than my Girl
    and Ship paintings, because it went straight to
    the heart of the matter without any pause for the
    mind to catch upThis is everything awful, it
    saidThis is everything you ever feared to find
    waiting in the darkSee how its grin races off
    its face in the moonlightSee how the drowned
    salute it
    "Christ," I said, looking up at Wireman"When, do
    you think? After her sisters - ?"
    "Must have beenMust have been her way of coping
    with it, don't you think?"
    "I don't know," I sa
    Monday, December 27th, 2010
    10:26 am
    @@@@@The next trick was to have the discipline to
    @@@@@The next trick was to have the discipline to actually put into action what I had learnedThat is where most people stopFor three years, while working for Xerox, I spent my spare time learning to master the art of buying foreclosuresI've made several million dollars using that formula, but today, it's too slow and too many other people are doing it
    So after I mastered that formula, I went in search of other formulasFor many of the classes, I did not use the information I learned directly, 'i| but I always learned something new
    I have attended classes designed for only derivative traders, also a class for commodity option traders and a class for ChaologistsI was way out of my league, being in a room full of people with doctorates in nuclear physics and space scienceYet, I learned a lot that made my stock and real estate investing more meaningful and lucrativeMost junior colleges and community colleges have classes on financial planning and buying of traditional investmentsThey are great places to start
    So I always search for a faster formulaThat is why, on a fairly regular basis, I make more in a day than many people will make in their lifetimeIn today's fast-changing world, it's not so much what you know anymore that counts, because often what you know is old It is how fast you learnThat skill is priceless It's priceless in finding faster formulas-recipes, if you will, for making doughWorking hard for money is an old formula born in the day of cave menPAY YOURSELF FIRST: The power of self-disciplineIf you cannot get control of yourself, do not try to get richYou might first want to join the Marine Corps or some religious order so you can get control of yourselfIt makes no sense to invest, make money and blow itIt is the lack of self-discipline that causes most lottery winners to go broke soon after winning millions It is the lack of self-discipline that causes people who get a raise to immediately go out and buy a new car or take a cruise
    It is difficult to say which of the ten steps is the most import
    Sunday, December 26th, 2010
    10:34 am
    @@@@@They retched, languished through long
    @@@@@They retched, languished through long flaccid minutes when they seemed close to unconsciousness, and suffered from recurring spasms of shivering when there seemed no heat left in their bodies
    After a long while, perhaps an hour, Brown sat up, swallowed a few salt tablets and drank almost half his canteen of waterThe salt rumbled uncomfortably in his stomach, but he felt some reliefWhen he stood up to walk over to Wilson, his legs moved without familiarity, weakly, like a man who is out of bed after a long illness"How're you feelin', boy?" he asked
    Wilson stared at himWith a groping motion his fingers had fluttered up to his forehead, removed the dampened cloth"You men better leave me, Brown," he croaked feeblyIn the past hour, lying on the stretcher, he had slid between consciousness and delirium, and now he was very tired, very spentTo Wilson there was no point in moving on any fartherHe was perfectly content at the moment to remain here; he did not think at all of what would happen to himHe knew only that he didn't want to be carried again, could not bear the agony of being jolted on the stretcher
    Brown was tempted, so tempted that he did not dare to believe Wilson"What are you talking about, boy?"
    "Lea' me, men, jus' lea' me Weaks tears came into Wilson's eyesRemotely, almost as if it did not concern him, he shook his head"I'm holdin' ya back, men, jus' lea' me behind It was all confused in his mind again; he thought they were on a patrol and he was lagging back because of his sickness"When a man gotta be crappin' all the time, it jus' slows ya up
    Stanley had come up beside Brown"What does he want us to do, leave him?"
    "Yeah
    "Think we ought to?"
    Brown generated some rage"Goddammit, Stanley, what the hell's the matter with you?" Again Brown was temptedA deep lassitude had filled his body; he had no desire to move on"Come on, men, let's go," he bawl
    Saturday, December 25th, 2010
    10:34 am
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    that Scarlett's trunks had been opened and repacked en route to the
    shipAmong the layers of tissue paper and petticoats and frocks and
    gowns were the tightly wrapped, oiled rifles and the boxes of
    ammunition he had purchased in BostonLike their fathers and
    grandfathers and generations before them, Stephen, Jamie, Matt,
    Colum,
    and even Uncle James were all militantly opposed to English rule over
    IrelandFor more than two hundred omega seamaster gmt years the O'Haras had risked
    their
    lives to fight, sometimes even kill, their foes, in abortive, ill-fated
    small actionsOnly in the past ten years had an organization begun to
    growDisciplined and dangerous, financed from America, the Fenians
    were becoming known throughout IrelandThey were heroes to the
    Irish
    peasant, anathema to English landowners, and to English military
    forces
    revolutionaries fit only for deathColum O'Hara was the chanel handbags sale most
    successful fund-raiser and one of the foremost clandestine leaders of
    the Fenian BrotherhoodBrian Boru moved ponderously between the
    banks
    of the Savannah River, pulled by steamdriven tugboatsWhen at last
    it
    reached the Atlantic, its deep whistle saluted the departing tugs and
    its great sails were loosedThe passengers cheered as the ship's prow
    dipped into the gray-green waves at the river's mouth and the
    tremendous paddle wheels began to gucci ladies watch churnScarlett and Kathleen
    stood
    side by side watching the flat shoreline recede quickly into a soft
    blur of green, then disappearWhat have I done? Scarlett thought,
    and she grabbed the deck rail in momentary panicThen she looked
    ahead at the limitless expanse of sun-flecked ocean, and her heart
    beat
    faster with the thrill of adventure"Oh!" Kathleen cried out
    Then, "Oooh," she moaned"What's wrong, Kathleen?"
    "OoohI'd forgot the ladies gucci watch seasickness," the girl gaspedScarlett held
    back her laughterShe put her arm around Kathleen's waist and led
    her
    to their cabinThat evening, Kathleen's chair at the captain's table
    was emptyScarlett and Colum did full justice to the gargantuan meal
    that was servedAfterwards, Scarlett took a bowl of broth to her
    unfortunate cousin and spoon-fed her"I'll be all right in a day or
    two," Kathleen promised in a weak voice"You won't need to be
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    Friday, December 24th, 2010
    10:23 am
    @@@@@One of the most difficult things we of the
    @@@@@One of the most difficult things we of the first wave had to conquer was the mating
    instinctBelieve me, the humans noticed when you didn't She grinned and rolled her eyes at
    some memoryWhen I didn't react as she'd expected, she sighed and crossed her arms
    impatiently“Oh, come now, WandererYou must have noticed
    “Well, of course,” I mumbledMelanie stirred restlesslyI've told you about the
    dreams”
    “No, I didn't mean just memoriesHaven't you come across anyone that your body has
    responded to in the present–on strictly a chemical level?”
    I thought her question through carefully
    “Trust me,” Kathy said dryly“Perhaps you should open
    your eyes and look around for that specificallyIt might do you a lot of good
    My body recoiled from the thoughtI registered Melanie's disgust, mirrored by my own
    Kathy read my expression“Don't let her control how you interact with your kind, Wanderer
    Don't let her control youI waited a moment to answer, reining in the anger that I'd never quite gotten
    used to
    “She does not control me
    Kathy raised an eyebrow
    The anger tightened my throat“You did not look too far afield for your current partnerWas
    that choice controlled?”
    She ignored my anger and considered the question thoughtf
    Thursday, December 23rd, 2010
    10:24 am
    @@@@@ As the mathematician said when he divided
    @@@@@
    As the mathematician said when he divided by zero,
    here goes nothing
    He tried to lift the stair, with no resultmust have been
    a hell of a small key-"
    "I've got a Swiss Army knife," Jack offered
    980
    "Just a minute," Wireman said, and I saw his lips
    tighten down as he applied upward pressure with
    his fingertipsA vein stood out in the hollow of
    his temple
    "Wireman," I started, "be carefu-"
    Before I could finish, the lock - old and tiny and
    undoubtedly rotted with rust - snappedThe stairtread
    flew up and tore off at the hingesWireman
    tumbled backwardJack caught him, and then I
    caught Jack in a clumsy one-armed hugThe big
    flashlight hit the floor but didn't break; its
    bright beam rolled, spotlighting that grisly pile
    of dead wasps
    "Holy shit," Wireman said, regaining his feet
    "Larry, Curly, and Moe
    Jack picked up the flashlight and shone it into
    the hole in the stairs"Anything? Nothing? Talk!"
    "Something, but it's not a ceramic bottle," he
    saidLooks like a candy box,
    only bigger
    "Maybe you better not," Wireman said
    But it was too late for thatJack reached in all
    the way up to his elbow, and for one moment I was
    981
    sure his face would lengthen in a scream as
    something battened on his arm and yanked him down
    to the shoulderThen he straightened againIn
    his hand he held a heart-shaped tin boxHe held
    it out to usOn the top, barely visible beneath
    speckles of rust, was a pink-cheeked angelBelow
    that, in old-fashioned script, these painted words:
    ELIZABETH
    HER THINGS
    Jack looked at us questioninglyIt wasn't Perse - I was positive
    of that nowI felt both disappointed and relie
    Wednesday, December 22nd, 2010
    10:34 am
    @@@@@Mary, she is not like her cousins; but I
    @@@@@Mary, she is not like
    her cousins; but I think I shall not ask in vainWere you even less pleasing—supposing her
    not to love you already (of which, however, I can have little doubt)—
    you would be safeThe gentleness and gratitude of her disposition
    would secure her all your own immediatelyFrom my soul I do not
    think she would marry you without love; that is, if there is a girl in
    the world capable of being uninfluenced by ambition, I can suppose
    it her; but ask her to love you, and she will never have the heart
    to refuse
    As soon as her eagerness could rest in silence, he was as happy to
    tell as she could be to listen; and a conversation followed almost as
    deeply interesting to her as to himself, though he had in fact nothing
    to relate but his own sensations, nothing to dwell on but Fanny’s
    charmsFanny’s beauty of face and figure, Fanny’s graces of manner
    and goodness of heart, were the exhaustless themeThe gentleness,
    modesty, and sweetness of her character were warmly expatiated on;
    that sweetness which makes so essential a part of every woman’s
    worth in the judgment of man, that though he sometimes loves
    where it is not, he can never believe it absentHer temper he had
    good reason to depend on and to praiseHe had often seen it tried
    Was there one of the family, excepting Edmund, who had not in
    some way or other continually exercised her patience and forbearance?
    Her affections were evidently strongTo see her with her
    brother! What could more delightfully prove that the warmth of
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    Mansfield Park
    her heart was equal to its gentleness? What could be more encouraging
    to a man who had her love in view? Then, her understanding
    was beyond every suspicion, quick and clear; and her manners were
    the mirror of her own modest and elegant mind
    Henry Crawford had too much sense not to feel the worth of good
    principles in a wife, though he was too little accustomed to serious
    reflection to know them by their proper name; but when he talked
    of her having such a steadiness and regularity of conduct, such a
    high notion of honour, and such an observance of decorum as might
    warrant any man in the fullest dependence on her faith and integrity,
    he expressed what was inspired by the knowledge of her being
    well principled and religious
    “I could so wholly and absolutely confide in her,” said he; “and
    that is what I want
    Well might his sister, believing as she really did that his opinion of
    Fanny Price was scarcely beyond her merits, rejoice in her prospects
    “The more I think of it,” she cried, “the more am I convinced that
    you are doing quite right; and though I should never have selected
    Fanny Price as the girl most likely to attach you, I am now persuaded
    she is the very one to make you happyYour wicked project
    upon her peace turns out a clever thought indeedYou will both
    find your good in it
    “It was bad, very bad in me against such a creature; but I did not
    know her then; and she shall have no reason to lament the hour that
    first put it into my headI will make her very happy, Mary; happier
    than she has ever yet been herself, or ever seen anybody elseI will
    not take her from NorthamptonshireI shall let Everingham, and
    rent a place in this neighbourhood; perhaps Stanwix LodgeI shall
    let a seven years’ lease of EveringhamI am sure of an excellent
    tenant at half a wordI could name three people now, who would
    give me my own terms and thank me
    “Ha!” cried Mary; “settle in Northamptonshire! That is pleasant!
    Then we shall be all toget
    Sunday, December 19th, 2010
    10:30 am
    @@@@@Your feelings are meaningful to you, but
    @@@@@Your feelings are meaningful to
    you, but they don’t change realityI did not mean to offend you
    “And I didn’t mean to mouth offIt’s just that he’s a very special personWhat are your plans? What do you need?”
    “I don’t know yet,” answered Bourne“I’ll pick up the car in the Capucines and an hour or so
    later I’ll know moreWill you be home or at the Deuxième Bureau?”
    “Until I hear from you I will stay in my flat and near my very unique telephoneUnder the
    circumstances I prefer that you do not call me at the office
    “That’s an astonishing statement
    “I don’t know everyone these days at the Deuxième, and at my age, caution is not merely the
    better part of valor, it’s frequently a substituteBesides, to call off my protection so swiftly might
    generate rumors of senilitySpeak to you later, mon ami
    Jason replaced the phone, tempted to pick it up again and reach the Pont-Royal, but this was
    Paris, the city of discretion, where hotel clerks were loath to give information over the telephone,
    and would refuse to do so with guests they did not knowHe dressed quickly, went down to pay his
    bill, and walked out onto the rue Gay-LussacThere was a taxi stand at the corner; eight minutes
    later he walked into the lobby of the Pont-Royal and up to the concierge“Je m’appelle Monsieur
    Simon,” he said to the man, giving his room number“I ran into a friend last night,” he continued in
    flawless French, “and I stayed at her placeWould you know if anyone came around looking for
    me, perhaps asking for me Bourne removed several large franc notes, his eyes telling the man he
    would pay generously for confidentiality“Or even describing someone like me,” he added softly
    “Merci bien, monsieurI will check further with the night concierge, but I’m
    sure he would have left a note for my personal attention if someone had come here seeking you
    “Why are you so sure?”
    “Because he did leave such a note for me to speak with youI’ve been calling your room since
    seven o’clock this morning when I came on duty
    “What did the note say?” asked Jason, his breathing on
    Saturday, December 18th, 2010
    10:27 am
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    thing to a mother this little girl knowsShe sees
    the scarf Nanny wraps around her head when she
    cleans; she sees the knot in the front, at the
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    through the windows
    Details, details, the truth is in the details
    And does seeing cry out to saying, even in a
    damaged mind? A wounded brain? Oh, it must, it
    must
    She thinks My head hurts
    She thinks Something bad happened, and I don't
    know who I amOr what all these
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    She thinks Libbit? Is my name Libbit? I used to
    knowI could talk in the used-to-know, but now my
    words are like fish in the waterI want the man
    with the hair on his lip
    She thinks That's my Daddy, but when I try to say
    his name I call "Ird! Ird!" instead, because one
    flies past my windowI see
    its eye like glassI prada messenger see its leg, how it bends
    like broke, and that word is crookitMaria and Hannah come inShe
    doesn't like them the way she likes the twinsThe
    twins are little, like her
    She thinks I called Maria and Hannah the Big
    Meanies in the used-to-know and realizes she knows
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    Friday, December 17th, 2010
    10:28 am
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    @@@@@He pressed them only lightly to mine, and then brushed them back
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    “Good or bad?” he whispered against my lips
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    “I–I can't think When I moved my mouth to speak, he moved his with it
    His mouth pressed down with more force nowHe caught my lower lip between his and pulled
    on it gently
    Melanie wanted to hit him–so much more than she'd wanted to punch JaredShe wanted to
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    “Please,” I whispered
    “Yes?”
    “Please stop
    He sat back at once, clasping his hands in front of him“Okay,” he said, his tone cautious
    I pressed my hands against my face, wishing I could push out Melanie's anger
    “Well, at least nobody punched me
    “She wanted to do more than thatI don't like it when she's mad
    “Why didn't she?”
    “Because I didn't lose controlShe only breaks free when I'm… overwhelmed
    He watched as I kneaded my forehead
    Calm down,I begged her
    Has he forgotten that I'mhere?Doesn't he care? This is me, it'sme!
    I tried to explain that
    What about you? Have you forgotten Jared?
    She threw the memories at me the way she'd done in the beginning, only this time they were
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    Saturday, December 11th, 2010
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    Astrodome hitting the earth are actually better
    than the chances of-"
    I reached for the radio and said, "Why don't we
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    For a second I didn't understand, and then I
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    Saturday, December 4th, 2010
    10:24 am
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    I was glad we were on the homestretch of our long raidTomorrow we would visit our growing
    cache–a moving truck we kept hidden within a day's reach of our path–and clean out the van for
    the last timeJust a few more cities, a few more days, down through Oklahoma, then New
    Mexico, and then a straight drive through Arizona with no stops
    When we slept in hotels rather than in the crowded van, we usually checked in after dark and
    left before dawn to keep the souls from getting a good look at us
    Jared and Ian were beginning to realize thatThis night, because we'd had such a successful
    day–the van was completely full; Kyle would have little space–and because Ian thought I looked
    tired, we stopped earlyThe sun had not set when I returned to the van with the plastic key
    card
    The little inn was not very busyWe parked close to our room, and Jared and Ian went straight
    from the van to the room in a matter of five or six steps, their eyes on the groundOn their
    necks, small, faint pink lines provided camouflageJared carried a half-empty suitcaseNo one
    looked at them or me
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    on the table, took out our dinner–cooled greasy breaded chicken strips I'd ordered from the deli
    in the last store–and passed it aroundI sat by the window, peeking through the corner at the
    falling sun as I ate
    “You have to admit, Wanda, we humans had better entertainment,” Ian teased
    On the television screen, two souls were speaking their lines clearly, their bodies held with
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    a lot of variety in the scripts souls wroteIn this one, two souls were reconnecting after a long
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    human because he guessed his partner from the Mists Planet would be drawn to these
    warm-blooded hostsAnd, miracle of miracles, he'd found her here
    They all had happy endings
    “You have to consider the intended audienc
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